I think everyone of us has a "I'm too nervous to fly" story and we certainly ALL have crash stories!!
So first off,
Your tendency to freeze is a natural response and one you can overcome!
Try to build a checklist of what you think is the best response (such as; chop throttle, try to flatten trajectory, etc.) then practice it....(a LOT)
Next time the unexpected happens you will just automatically go through the steps... and... probably crash anyway, but maybe less damage this time!
The one thing I will tell you based on my experience with the edge...
She just goes where you point her... whether that in the clouds, or into the ground...
(all kidding aside, there are no "self correcting tendencies" on the edge... so freezing up will almost certainly result in a crash.)
Speaking of that, don't sweat the damage (Look at the crazy repairs Mayan did to keep his first one in the air!!) besides, once it's in the air no one will be able to see the scars!
I hear you brother!! I'm up at 4am to cook Thanksgiving for my friends and family (You are all invited BTW) and I tomorrow I fly out again for another week... This schedule is seriously cramping my flying!!!
Glad to hear you got some air time!!