I quit!
I QUIT! This hobby sucks! (Tantrum thrown)
I bought a FT Guinea Pig as my first plane. Took it out flying three times. Each time it was a crash and never got through more than one battery. Bought a FT Bloody Baron. Never more than one battery in a session, destroyed. Built another Bloody Baron....same results, destroyed. I am stubborn, but I was done with this crap. If God wanted foam to fly he would have given it wings!
One more time.....
I took a Friday off. Perfect day weather wise. I got the Guinea back in "flying" condition. Brought out the inverter and glue gun and was going to stay there until I flew this damn Guinea Pig. This was it. If I crashed this thing beyond hot glue gun repair, I was done. The first few flights I didn't realize my elevator servo was destroyed in my last crash. Fixed that.
I flew that same plane for 6 hrs that day. Got my nerves finally calmed. Stopped worrying about a crash. Just flew. It flew. I got it to dump my GoPro out the rear end with a home built parachute and it worked
gloriously.
We (the plane and I) had some non gentle landings.
I have been flying one other time since then and it was a lot of fun, with the same Guinea Pig. Self cut FT Spitfire on the bench, will definitely be out next time.
If you have any doubts, just keep trying, make sure your first few flights you have lots of time to double check everything. It is harder to learn to fly by yourself, but it
CAN be done.