I am simply overwhelmed by your support everyone. Sorry i haven't posted much but I tend to ramble, which could easily lead to novel-sized posts. Anyways, a couple updates. Firstly, ive gotten hold of a flight sim app that ive been 'flying' on and lets just say if they were real planes, id already be broke (more than I already am lol). But im flying and thats step one right? Also... And probably the happiest news this week... I GOT A JOB!!!! I went in for an interview Friday and it was more a formality than anything. I start tonight, so fingers crossed... And I'm still committed to quitting my habits. It's got to be done, for multiple reasons. That said, I have questions... Nimber one, I saw a video that mention "expo" and "rates"... Im wondering if someone could elaborate on this and make the info noob friendly? Also, the sim im using is "RC Flight Sim". It doesnt have the bixler on it (Lol) but it does have the blade on there (two different versions I think) and the EZ Trainer. Ive been practicing low-level flight, as the closer you get to the ground without crashing or touching, the faster you earn the coins you use to 'buy' other planes. Has anyone tried this sim? Its not bad, in my opinion. However, if anyone has a mobile rc app they would recommend (apps only as I just have the phone ATM), im all for something that'll help get my mind off cravings. Ive also gone back to basics with the flight test channel. I started all the way from (I think) their start in 2011 and I just now am past 2012. Still a long way to go obviously. Anyways, im still struggling a bit. My addict side is screaming 'you need this,' but my logical side is becoming more n more a dominant force in my mind. I KNOW I dont need weed. In fact I lived a really decent life before i touched it. And my life is decent now. But I imagine what it could be now if, instead of buying weed, I bought something else. I know it does little good to dwell on things like that, but it also helps me stay focused. Ive got to keep the goal in mind. Im not gonna make out this year to flite fest. The money had to be used for survival. But the goal is still there. I have to be there, just once. I need that fellowship. That bonding that comes from everyone of a like mind expelling nothing but good vibes and warm welcomes would do this recovering novice some good, both to spirit and mind. At any rate, fly em like you stole em, family! Hopefully I see you all soon! And once again, thank you flite test!